I broke up with TSA today. It is with mixed emotion that I resigned and even write this blog. I love the Army, I love what I do, I love most of the people, I would have loved to stay. I just couldn't do it anymore. I wish they would have listened to me sooner. I wish they wouldn't have treated RBMBA the way they did. I wish for a lot. It's sad because the Swede asked several times if I would reconsider but I told him we were beyond that (though I didn't say it in those words).
Surprisingly (or maybe not) they accepted my resignation and will allow me to take my sick time and come back to button up my books. It's not good timing and we are all sad but what's done is done. I'm very grateful they are letting me leave on good terms and say goodbye to my friends at the office. We've all had enough drama the past two months, no one needs any more. I can tell a huge weight has been lifted and there is no more pressure or tension.
I feel very much inside like I just broke up with someone. I feel like it has been a long time coming and we all knew it was going to happen. Now that it has actually happened though, we are all a little shaken. Even me. I think it will take some time to "grieve" if you will. Perhaps closure is a better word. I'm sure in no time I'll be back to being excited about Treehouse, which I am.
It felt good to be honest with TSA. I started to feel kinda crummy about knowing I was leaving but not giving them a heads up while I was recooping. This way I got to give them notice, have a clear conscious/conscience (I never remember which spelling it is), start TH on time, and leave TSA on excellent terms.
For now I've downloaded Kelly Clarkson's Breakaway, Psyche's Goodbye Horses (think Silence of the lambs and lipstick - I'll post a likeness pic), and Gwen Stefani's The Sweet Escape for sulking purposes.
Here's my best he-bitch impression (even Silent Bob from Clerks II is in the background):
"Ooooh"
1 comment:
What a drag, it all sounds kind of disheartening and bit depressing. However, I am thinking you've got an incredibly full plate this coming month with the surgery and so on that you are going to be focused on moving forward in many different ways. You are embarking on a journey of new experiences and continuing down a path of growth, shedding the TSA skin is clearly part of this plan. You've done the right thing for yourself and probably for TSA b/c an unhappy employee is not going to give 110% all the time, it's hard to give when you don't feel appreciated or as if you are doing some kind of good in your 8 hours per day.
Hang in there, the break up blues will pass.
Let the He-Bitchery begin LOL.
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