So while I was lying on the table today getting my eyebrow tattoos touched up and my lips done for the first time, I did a rough estimate of how much money I've put into fixing myself up the past year. Between the laser tattoo removal, laser hair removal, surgies, hair cut and coloring, permenant make-up, Restalyne, tanning, pedi/mani/wax, teeth whitening, eyelash help, gym membership, and personal trainer I will have spent about $30,000. Can you believe that. I can't. That's a new car. That's a down payment on a house. That's are whole wedding and honeymoon. That's half a year's salary. GROSS! That's a lot of stuff. I will say that I'm happy with the decisions I've made. Of course the money could have gone to a million other things but I have to say that I have enjoyed using the wedding as an excuse to lavishly spend on myself. Now that all these things have been done only moderate maintenance will be necessary for upkeep so I can somewhat capitalize the expense. Not to mention what it has done for me on a personal note. I'm very lucky....wait, scratch that. I feel very sad for the women out there who are married to men who would not support their decisions to do some or all of the procedures I've done. When it comes down to it, it's my money and I've been able to afford all this AND still pay off my credit cards each month. I haven't been able to save much for the wedding, but we've been staggering the costs and paying most of them off each month. That said, I can afford the stuff I've done, it's my money, and Dane has had no qualms with my decisions. I see the look in other people's eyes though when I talk about what I've done or admit that it hasn't been inexpensive and the look I get is troubling to say the least. I don't get it from everyone, thank God, but I have to wonder about the looks I do get. Ultimately this is my life. I am not harming anyone, I am not putting pressure on anyone, I am paying for everything myself - why shouldn't I do it? Why do I get the stink eye? Who knows. And quite honestly who cares. I do more than my fair share to help others, volunteer, and pull my own weight. I got a little side-tracked there. Perhaps I needed to convince myself more than anyone else that I am deserving. I wonder why we are all our own worst critics? Why is it such an internal battle to justify a frivilous activity? Well I for one aim to squash that attitude starting now!
:-)
Check it out:
This is the picture that started it all. Obviously I knew I needed to get my brows touched up and had been waffling back and forth on my lips. This picture sent me over the edge. We were at the tulip gardens in northern Washington and what would otherwise be a great picture was ruined by my lack of lips.
A better example:
Notice I have no lips?
The solution:
TA DA!!! I have lips! Now keep in mind this pic is hours after the tattooing so it will fade at least 50%. Which is almost sad, I kinda like how dark the lips are. :-)
2 comments:
Wow, you look really different! Your face looks incredibly thin, is that a make up thing or something to do with surgery?
I've always been a fan of darker lip color, I think it can be quite breathtaking, especially on those of us of the pale nature:)
xoxo
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I think it's the lighting and angles - the pictures were all taken around the same time so I don't think I've really lost too much weight. But thanks! :-)
My bottom lip is healed now.
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