So I'm waiting for HG to finish working so we can leave to go to Borders. I feel like ass (I think mostly because of stress than an actual cold so much) and need a pick me up. I'm going to get some books on stress mgmt, some vegan books (maybe Dr. McDougall), and see what else piques my interest.
I had a lot of time to think in traffic last night (it took me 1.35 hours to get home) and I think my body is withering away due to stress. I'm just not the personality type to deal with stress. I used to think I could, in fact, I used to think I thrived in stress. To some degree I still think I do, but there is a difference between good stress and bad stress. Right now I'm overwhelmed with bad stress. I hate going to work everyday and I'm just barely making ends meet. I think of it in the sense that I am a very competitive (with myself) perfectionist. Right now the environment at TSA is just not in place to cater to my high maintenance work ethic. That doesn't mean TSA sucks or that I suck, it just means that I'm setting MYSELF up to fail here. I'm sure things will get better but in the meantime I need to find positive ways to deal with the stress and overwhelming situation.
For starters, at work I've whiddled away my to-do list to one thing a day. Seriously. If I get that one project accomplished, then I can go home with a sense of victory.
Whoops - time to go. More later.
2 comments:
Did you ever think what is best for you? Not best for everyonoe eslse. You seem to care for everyone bu you, take a minute for you and no-one other but than you and see you what you find. Put work, social. and evrything other adide.
I love random comments. I always have to read and re-read the messages and wonder what they were thinking to write such a comment.
I say this because the comment above seems as though this person is telling me to look out for me and my best interest. But the entire post was about ME and my pursuit to find resources to help ME take care of ME.
Incidently, HG and I did pick up several books that I feel confident will help. I will post more on it later though, under a different vibe than this peculiar rant.
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