So there are greater forces at work here. Even more so than I thought possible. I've always been a firm believer that things happen for a reason, regardless of whether that reason is known or not. I will not get in to all the crazy details of the past week, but suffice it to say that the Universe was already preparing for decisions not yet made. There were bodies and events in motion long before we knew what the end result would be. To capitalize on a few events:
1) Randy offered on Tuesday to take my car on Friday to Seattle via the trailer that we are purchasing from him - took care of my car, our need for a trailer, and freed up the moving van from towing.
2) On Tuesday we were offered a house which would work wonders for our living situation with any guests. As it turned out, we opted out of that house in favor of a bigger house with a bigger lot for lots and lots of parking room.
There are other things going on as well, but all good things. I am confident that Rhi needs to get away from Denver in order to dispose of all her excess baggage and move on with Kate. I have no doubt Kate will be a good friend for her regardless of what happens in their relationship, but she realizes and encourages Rhi to make this move in order to mop her life up. I'm glad Rhi's going - for selfish reasons and because I know that it is the right thing for her.
I've never denied being selfish - no one can ever accuse me of that. I'd like to meet one person who is truly selfless - maybe Ghandi, Mother Theresa? I also want what is best for those around me and I truly believe that Dane and I can help Rhi the way she needs it. We've agreed to be harder on her (I know some would say that I am too hard on her - but what do they know about my relationship with Rhi behind closed doors, probably about the same amount as I know about their countless relationships) when it comes to finances and money so she can really get a grasp on her checkbook. Besides, we won't know anyone in Seattle, so the invitation to go out weekly won't be there.
So in all these rambles - I guess I just have to say that I am glad with how things are going. And I truly miss Dane. It's funny cause this whole summer I've been like "WHHHOOOO!!!!!" And now that I finally start to REALLY REALLY miss Dane, it's time to leave. So I'm like "Eh, I'll see him in two weeks. WWWHHHHOOOOOOO!!!" HAAH! Just kidding. I missed him a lot this weekend.
*raises cup* To Seattle AND BEYOOONNNDDD!!!!
3 comments:
It all did come together very nicely.
I was just out having a smoke and thinking about all this. Funny you wrote about it. A dull smile came over my face as I am starting to realize that I am cutting the ropes. The ropes of life that are holding me down. I know certain people think you are bad for me or whatever but in the reality of the situation you and Mr Man are 2 of the best things that have happened to me. I know at the end of the day you will always be in my corner no matter how much I eff up. Yet others that have been in my life have not been there and when they are there all they do is past judgement on me and try to tear me down. It is because of people like that I have decided I need to move.I need this move to break away. I need to make this move so I can be with Kate and be the partner she deserves. The more I start thinking of what certain people have done to me in life it angers me, yet a dull smile comes across my face as I realize I will be the one to come out on top. Because I am the one with all the love in life and moving on in my life and becoming a better person. They can find someone else to pick on and destroy because I will not let it be me!!!!!
I will miss a lot of people in Denver but I know my friends understand I have to do this. I need to break away from those that have been toxic to me.
Crystal thank you for being my family. Thank you for all your kind words and your harsh words j/k LOL
Thank you for always being there. Thank you for understanding. I love you. I also love Mr. Man
Love
Mr. Assistant Woman
P.S. You are not hard on me it is tough love and I wouldn't want it any other way!!!!
Sounds like all the plans are indeed coming together nicely and I am so happy this is pointing in the direction of a very positive move for you both. I think you all will be quite happy in Seattle and find it a profound growing experience for each of you as friends but als in your own unqiue ways.
Not sure who's up in arms over the situations at hand, but my personal opinion has always been only one of wanting Lil' Rhi to have the opportunities to move forward as SHE sees fit for herself, if this is the right move for her, so be it and I support her decisions. I may not always agree with every action or decisions but it is not up to me to agree or force my opinion, only be the source of a loving hug and thoughtful ear when needed. Friendships are not about judgement or hasty reactions, at least not in my book.
I am quite certain all involved are secure our friendships and my love.
And as for going out weekly...um DUH...hello, at some point I will be there so I will want to be going out when I come!!! Damit. Forgetting about me already? YOUR FIRED! ;-)
HAHAHA!!! We will never forget about you Sarah and you bet your pretty ass we are holding you to eventually moving up there!!
Rhi and I have always understood that you have been nothing but supportive for us. This blog was directed at those who I do not call my friends. :)
As sad as it is, there are those who still haven't moved on and still use me, Rhi, and others to further their poisonous dramas. My heart goes out to them, but my justifications for their obsurd behavior do not.
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