So all my posts recently have been all about what I'm doing. No girth or depth. Recently I haven't had time to think about much other than the day to day stuff but believe me there are thoughts twirling around in my brain.
For starters I get really sick of Dane's attitude with me on a lot of stuff. He often asks like I ask the world of him when asking for help around the house or to do things that should be on his radar (considering he's an adult) like getting his hair trimmed in a timely manner. Then he lays this guilt trip on me about how he provides such a nice life for me and I'd be in a cardboard box w/o him (my words, not his). And while I appreciate what he does for our life together, I hate having him dangle it over my head like I'm some stay-at-home wife that doesn't earn her keep.
I'm just venting really, but it does do a mind f*ck on me. I get so mad sometimes that I wish we weren't married and I could just leave. Sometimes I think "what's the point", I don't want to change the way he is but at the sametime he's not what I want/need. What to do, what to do?
In other aspects I'm so happy with Dane. I really don't want to leave him but I get tired of being his shadow. I'm sure everything will be fine. Just some thoughts to chew on.
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