Wow - only 7 more days of singledom. I had a big plan to have one last fling in PDX but in the end chickened out. I'm going to pretend like it's because I had a choice and not so much a lack of opportunity. :-P But even if I was presented with an option to have "one last fling" I don't think I would have. And that was a turning point for me. Up until now, even though I live with Dane and we share our life together and if either of us ever compromised this relationship we have it would be ugly, it hasn't really hit me that "this is it". In my mind I've always thought that there could be others and I've even convinced myself that I could/would want others. But this weekend it was solidified. I want Dane. I was so happy to go home to him. I had a blast in PDX, it was a great time and Zac's mom is hysterical, but my life, my heart, my soul is with Dane.
So I realize that and smile cause that's a nice kind of security, ya know. And I'm humbled by the experiences of my other best friends, some are hurting, some are losing, some are sad cause their man is miles away. No matter what, I have to recognize that what I have is deep, special, once in a lifetime.
Then it hits me - this really is it. At least I hope it is. I don't want to go through the pain of a divorce. I know it is it, perhaps that's why it's so scary.
I just asked Dane if he was sure he didn't want a last fling. He asked how I could possibly provide that for him. I suggested he look in to any opportunities he might have been neglecting. To which he said there aren't any...that are neglected. *Marge noise* I didn't know those were the rules!!
So I guess I'll get married without my last fling.
In tactical news, I've been busy and this week is no joke. I've got to get my dress, get some last minute shopping items (lingerie, pantyhose, pumps, clutch, accessories, nice outfit, so on), doctor appointment, hair appointment, go to the bank, drop the foster kitties off, and all sorts of other nonsense. Thursday night we have an early night since we have to leave for the airport at a horrible hour in the am. I still need to do some laundry and pack. I'll do that on Thursday since I have the day off. Tonight we got our hands and feet all cleaned up and then went to the naked spa (for HG's b-day).
Dane says I have cold feet.
Monday, June 25, 2007
Monday, June 18, 2007
Fremont Pics
I downloaded some parade pics to my MySpace page, check it out.
So last week was crazy busy getting ready for the parade. All the way up until Friday night HG and I were sewing and stitching and braiding and primping. We got up bright and early Sat morning to get ready. We were running late, in fact so late that I passed up a RARE DOUBLE SIDED FRONT (!) BUMPER GNOME!!!! I almost cried. It was horrible.
Anyway - we got to the parade and parked and drank our wine, I mean SoBe green tea *wink* and prepared to entertain the crowd. It was a beautiful day and a great parade - lots of fun. Dane stole the show though, as he usually does in his Anubis costume.
After the parade and true to yearly tradition we had a party back at the house where everyone let their hair down and took their wigs off. I'll have to post those pics another time. It was one of the best get-togethers we've ever had at our house.
Sunday was Die Hard Extravaganza day, which was really just an excuse for Dane and I to stay planted on the sofa. Good times.
This and next week are busy putting the final touches on the wedding such as: touch up on lip tattoo, Dr. Egrari appointment (I have a stitch poking out that refuses to disolve but I don't want to go to the office cause I've gained so much weight), laser junk session, wedding dress fitting, manicure/pedicure/brows, kickball (having nothing to do with the wedding), hair coloring, shopping, trip to Portland, more shopping, spa with HG and RB for HG's b-day, exchange money, print documents, laundry and pack for Cabo - it's a lot of stuff.
Work is going well, I can start focusing on monthly and daily tasks that I have at hand. I'll be happy to hand over the budgets...
Not much else is going on - obviously wedding prep, but that's it. It's so nice not having school. I never realize how much of my time it consumes till I don't have to do it. It was very nice to have the time to go grocery shopping, tanning, and to the gym tonight without stressing over homework. I think I will probably take a long break from school after my Master's degree. Eff getting a law degree and a doctorates, at least for anyway.
After the wedding, the only thing I will have on my plate is the 3 Day, which is good because I have about $2000 I still need to raise! YIKES!! I have a couple of fundraisers in store though, so we'll see how it turns out. And of course school, but I'll get back into the swing of that easily enough.
Then I get another break in October, which I plan to go to CO for a weekend. That should be fun. All good stuff coming down the pike and overall things are pretty good. So I should probably brace for something really bad to happen. *flinch*
So last week was crazy busy getting ready for the parade. All the way up until Friday night HG and I were sewing and stitching and braiding and primping. We got up bright and early Sat morning to get ready. We were running late, in fact so late that I passed up a RARE DOUBLE SIDED FRONT (!) BUMPER GNOME!!!! I almost cried. It was horrible.
Anyway - we got to the parade and parked and drank our wine, I mean SoBe green tea *wink* and prepared to entertain the crowd. It was a beautiful day and a great parade - lots of fun. Dane stole the show though, as he usually does in his Anubis costume.
After the parade and true to yearly tradition we had a party back at the house where everyone let their hair down and took their wigs off. I'll have to post those pics another time. It was one of the best get-togethers we've ever had at our house.
Sunday was Die Hard Extravaganza day, which was really just an excuse for Dane and I to stay planted on the sofa. Good times.
This and next week are busy putting the final touches on the wedding such as: touch up on lip tattoo, Dr. Egrari appointment (I have a stitch poking out that refuses to disolve but I don't want to go to the office cause I've gained so much weight), laser junk session, wedding dress fitting, manicure/pedicure/brows, kickball (having nothing to do with the wedding), hair coloring, shopping, trip to Portland, more shopping, spa with HG and RB for HG's b-day, exchange money, print documents, laundry and pack for Cabo - it's a lot of stuff.
Work is going well, I can start focusing on monthly and daily tasks that I have at hand. I'll be happy to hand over the budgets...
Not much else is going on - obviously wedding prep, but that's it. It's so nice not having school. I never realize how much of my time it consumes till I don't have to do it. It was very nice to have the time to go grocery shopping, tanning, and to the gym tonight without stressing over homework. I think I will probably take a long break from school after my Master's degree. Eff getting a law degree and a doctorates, at least for anyway.
After the wedding, the only thing I will have on my plate is the 3 Day, which is good because I have about $2000 I still need to raise! YIKES!! I have a couple of fundraisers in store though, so we'll see how it turns out. And of course school, but I'll get back into the swing of that easily enough.
Then I get another break in October, which I plan to go to CO for a weekend. That should be fun. All good stuff coming down the pike and overall things are pretty good. So I should probably brace for something really bad to happen. *flinch*
Dun dun dunnnnnn
http://archives.seattletimes.nwsource.com/cgi-bin/texis.cgi/web/vortex/display?slug=parade17m&date=20070617&query=fremont
It finally happened, Dane made the front page of the papers. :-)
It finally happened, Dane made the front page of the papers. :-)
Wednesday, June 13, 2007
Random Stuff
This is a choli. :-) It is NOT a foot fungus as HG proclaims, she just wants people to think that foot fungus is normal.
Shit - I was going to have time for a big blog but then I got a call and now I gotta go. See ya!
Monday, June 11, 2007
Madness
So a lot has happened in the past few weeks. Obviously there was Amsterdam (as detailed in the other blog), I finished up school, getting ready for the parade, catching up on work, and reeling from the weight I've gained. Then there's the wedding. I'll explain:
Amsterdam = look to other blog, but the jet lag affects, or what I think are jet lag affects, didn't quite leave me until Thursday of last week.
School = So I did end up ditching the last day of school. I slept all day in hopes that I would work on my paper in the evening. That didn't happen. At 10PM I realized that I should just hand in what I had completed for partial credit. I boot up the laptop only to realize that my most completed version of my paper is housed on my work computer (rat fink!), so I had to ask Dane to drive me to work at 10:30 on a Saturday to get my paper. We did and I handed it in about 50% complete. Since the assignment was worth 20% of the total letter grade for the class and I already had an A- I figured I'd be lucky to get a C in the class. However, the teacher said that if we did a good job on our final paper, he might redo the week four grades. Even though I didn't complete the whole paper, he said I had done such a good job on redoing it that had I finished the paper he believes it would have been A+ material (wow!). So he felt bad that all he could do was give me 15/20, which for only a 50% completed paper that was amazing. And he upped my W4 assignment grade, leaving me with a B+ for my final grade. Again, not bad considering I didn't even do the bulk of the final. Whoot whoot! So I'm on a hiatus (thank God because there's no way I could complete anything for school right now) till I get back from Mexico. My next class: Enterprise Risk (whatever that is).
Parade: So the parade is this Saturday. I feel woefully unprepared for the d@mn thing. And this year I'm wearing my Isis Wings, so I'll have HUGE props on my hands for all to see when I make a mistake. But as SC said, I'll just have to recover and move on when I make a mistake. :-) I've been practicing and plan to practice for about an hour or so each night this week above and beyond the class on Wed and dress rehersal on Thurs. Regardless, I'm looking forward to the parade still and think it will be a great time. My costume is near complete. I just need a choli.
Work: Is going well, I haven't made it in the past two weeks to make up for AMS, but I did come in 2 hours early today. I figure if I do that for the next two weeks, then not only will I get all caught up on work, I'll make up for the lost time. I came back to a happy office, Janis (the ED) even hugged me! Everyone was happy to have me back and geniunely excited to hear about my trip. Our new Director of Admin/Finance started too. I think I'm really going to enjoy working with him. He's strong in Finance, but knows Accounting well enough to help me out. I think he will be a great asset to the organization. For now I'm closing May and working on various projects and reconciliations. I have more pots on the burner than I usually like, but it's still better than TSA.
Weight: Ugh - I weigh more today than I did the day of surgery. WTF!? I ditched the vegan diet and all of a sudden I've gained 10 lbs. And I've been slacking on working out. So this week and for the next three weeks I've resolved to work out for 2 hours a day and I'm back to portion control as of tomorrow when my Lucky Palate shipment comes in. It's one thing to be overweight, it's quite another to do what I've done and then gain the weight back. I'm absolutely ashamed of myself and feel like the most pathetic loser in the world. No excuses, seriously, I have no effing excuse.
Wedding: So this week is dedicated to the Parade, but I have put a little thought here and there to the wedding. Like we went shopping yesterday for Dane and got his wedding outfit. We found my wedding shoes (which will hopefully go with the gown as I won't get the gown till 1 day before I leave for Cabo). I bought some cute, classy outfits for Mexico and will probably get more when I'm in PDX next weekend. I still need lingerie, figure out my hair situation, order spa services, nail down the vows, get the money down to Cabo, figure out the suitcase/packing situation. There are a lot of tiny details that still need to be done. Fortunately for me I can focus ALL my energy to the event after this Saturday. I have the whole plan worked out. I've had to sluff off some household duties and chores in order accomodate the wedding, but that's no biggie. The house will still be a mess upon our return, no sense in stressing now to get it done. And in other news, Dane and I have decided that we will be having a pirate wedding after all. In order to legally be married we have to have a Mexican ceremony w/ the judge all done at the courthouse. Technically our beach ceremony is entirely symbolic/traditional in the non traditional way. So we thought, shoot - if we are already going to have a formal wedding and we wont understand a lick of the Mexican ceremony, might as well have fun with it and dress like pirates.
And finally - (you won't believe this) apparently Dane's mom (Janet) and husband (Bill) are having troubles securing their timeshare for the wedding. They already purchased their airline tickets but they can't get in to their timeshare till Sunday so they need a place to stay for Saturday night. Bill called Dane to ask if he and Janet could room with Dane and I for Saturday night. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you believe that?!?! On our WEDDING!!! Dane said he was just in shock. He didn't know how to respond. But even if we did entertain this idea, it's an all-inclusive resort. You can't even get in the d@mn thing without having the proper credentials and/or paying for a day pass. Not to mention we could get in serious trouble for smuggling people in. The fucking nerve. My mom is so funny, she sent an email today saying that she and dad have grossly underestimated their spending money and need to stay with us in our room. I almost fell for it but then keeled over laughing. Well played, Mom, well played.
Amsterdam = look to other blog, but the jet lag affects, or what I think are jet lag affects, didn't quite leave me until Thursday of last week.
School = So I did end up ditching the last day of school. I slept all day in hopes that I would work on my paper in the evening. That didn't happen. At 10PM I realized that I should just hand in what I had completed for partial credit. I boot up the laptop only to realize that my most completed version of my paper is housed on my work computer (rat fink!), so I had to ask Dane to drive me to work at 10:30 on a Saturday to get my paper. We did and I handed it in about 50% complete. Since the assignment was worth 20% of the total letter grade for the class and I already had an A- I figured I'd be lucky to get a C in the class. However, the teacher said that if we did a good job on our final paper, he might redo the week four grades. Even though I didn't complete the whole paper, he said I had done such a good job on redoing it that had I finished the paper he believes it would have been A+ material (wow!). So he felt bad that all he could do was give me 15/20, which for only a 50% completed paper that was amazing. And he upped my W4 assignment grade, leaving me with a B+ for my final grade. Again, not bad considering I didn't even do the bulk of the final. Whoot whoot! So I'm on a hiatus (thank God because there's no way I could complete anything for school right now) till I get back from Mexico. My next class: Enterprise Risk (whatever that is).
Parade: So the parade is this Saturday. I feel woefully unprepared for the d@mn thing. And this year I'm wearing my Isis Wings, so I'll have HUGE props on my hands for all to see when I make a mistake. But as SC said, I'll just have to recover and move on when I make a mistake. :-) I've been practicing and plan to practice for about an hour or so each night this week above and beyond the class on Wed and dress rehersal on Thurs. Regardless, I'm looking forward to the parade still and think it will be a great time. My costume is near complete. I just need a choli.
Work: Is going well, I haven't made it in the past two weeks to make up for AMS, but I did come in 2 hours early today. I figure if I do that for the next two weeks, then not only will I get all caught up on work, I'll make up for the lost time. I came back to a happy office, Janis (the ED) even hugged me! Everyone was happy to have me back and geniunely excited to hear about my trip. Our new Director of Admin/Finance started too. I think I'm really going to enjoy working with him. He's strong in Finance, but knows Accounting well enough to help me out. I think he will be a great asset to the organization. For now I'm closing May and working on various projects and reconciliations. I have more pots on the burner than I usually like, but it's still better than TSA.
Weight: Ugh - I weigh more today than I did the day of surgery. WTF!? I ditched the vegan diet and all of a sudden I've gained 10 lbs. And I've been slacking on working out. So this week and for the next three weeks I've resolved to work out for 2 hours a day and I'm back to portion control as of tomorrow when my Lucky Palate shipment comes in. It's one thing to be overweight, it's quite another to do what I've done and then gain the weight back. I'm absolutely ashamed of myself and feel like the most pathetic loser in the world. No excuses, seriously, I have no effing excuse.
Wedding: So this week is dedicated to the Parade, but I have put a little thought here and there to the wedding. Like we went shopping yesterday for Dane and got his wedding outfit. We found my wedding shoes (which will hopefully go with the gown as I won't get the gown till 1 day before I leave for Cabo). I bought some cute, classy outfits for Mexico and will probably get more when I'm in PDX next weekend. I still need lingerie, figure out my hair situation, order spa services, nail down the vows, get the money down to Cabo, figure out the suitcase/packing situation. There are a lot of tiny details that still need to be done. Fortunately for me I can focus ALL my energy to the event after this Saturday. I have the whole plan worked out. I've had to sluff off some household duties and chores in order accomodate the wedding, but that's no biggie. The house will still be a mess upon our return, no sense in stressing now to get it done. And in other news, Dane and I have decided that we will be having a pirate wedding after all. In order to legally be married we have to have a Mexican ceremony w/ the judge all done at the courthouse. Technically our beach ceremony is entirely symbolic/traditional in the non traditional way. So we thought, shoot - if we are already going to have a formal wedding and we wont understand a lick of the Mexican ceremony, might as well have fun with it and dress like pirates.
And finally - (you won't believe this) apparently Dane's mom (Janet) and husband (Bill) are having troubles securing their timeshare for the wedding. They already purchased their airline tickets but they can't get in to their timeshare till Sunday so they need a place to stay for Saturday night. Bill called Dane to ask if he and Janet could room with Dane and I for Saturday night. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you believe that?!?! On our WEDDING!!! Dane said he was just in shock. He didn't know how to respond. But even if we did entertain this idea, it's an all-inclusive resort. You can't even get in the d@mn thing without having the proper credentials and/or paying for a day pass. Not to mention we could get in serious trouble for smuggling people in. The fucking nerve. My mom is so funny, she sent an email today saying that she and dad have grossly underestimated their spending money and need to stay with us in our room. I almost fell for it but then keeled over laughing. Well played, Mom, well played.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
According to Blogthings IIII (okay I'm going to work now)
| People Envy Your Confidence |
 You have the attitude and self esteem to take on anything. Failure is beyond not an option for you - it doesn't even cross your mind. People envy your ability to take on any challenge ... and they're secretly afraid you think you're better than them. You don't. You're just sure of yourself. |
According to Blogthings III
| What Your Peanut Butter And Jelly Sandwich Means |
 Your eating style is reserved. You are a bit of a fussy eater, and you have very specific ways you like your food prepared. You don't really have a sweet tooth. If you go for dessert, you tend to go for something light. Your taste in food tends to be pretty flexible. You may crave sushi one night, and your favorite childhood recipe the next. You are probably a fairly normal, upper middle class person. You don't rock the boat too often. (not true - I live to rock the boat) You are a tough person who isn't afraid to live life fully. There isn't a lot that scares you. You are laid back and extremely easygoing. You never make a fuss, and you try to enjoy every moment. (this is also not true - I always make a fuss even when there's no fuss to make and I don't always live in the moment, though I try to) |
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