Noc Noc

Who's there?

Your proposal - you should comb your hair and put on some make up once in a while. :-)

Yeah, so had I known I was going to be proposed to on Thursday, July 13th, I would have revisited my choice in outfit, brushed my hair, and put on my eyes. Hee hee, as my fabulously gay friend pointed out, "well, my dear, shouldn't you always take the time to look fabu?" Well said indeed. Bad outfit and hair aside, what an amazing day it was.

Dane and I have both been very busy (cite reference 6/10/06 post) with work lately and haven't really had much time to chat throughout the day. Also, earlier last week I was really down in the dumps. I was in a funk and didn't know what to do with it and it followed me where ever I went. But I was looking forward to going to the Noc Noc on Thursday to hang w/ HG, MR, TJ, and RB. It was cool because Mog and Bina showed up, along with Delilah and her friend. It didn't occur to me that so many people were there: HG and MR were bummed they missed the 2nd half of the last show we went to, so I figured they wanted to go again, TJ and RB have always talked about going to the show, Mog is there 75% of the time when we are and now that Bina is out of school it makes sense that she's there too, and Delilah probably just needed a night out.

Anyway, Dane was late because he was working. Little did I know that he was finishing up dinner alone at Fado and pacing the alleys of Pike Place Market letting time pass. When the show started I was annoyed that he still hadn't shown up, so I text messaged him one word "Dude!" In retrospect, I'm glad I didn't take the time to put my real thoughts in the message. :-) At the beginning of intermission, they announced a door prize game and wouldn't you know it, I won! I never once thought anything other than "YEAH! I'm going to win prizes!!" When I felt the hand in my hand, I thought maybe it was Laura Rose debuting her next act. All I could hear was the roar of the audience, I couldn't hear Dane say "Crystal, you've been with me through the good and the bad. I love you, and I want to share my life with you, if you'll have me." (disclaimer - I *may* not have that exactly right) I was all about the third prize and then they took my blindfold off and I saw nothing and then Dane on the floor (first shock) then my eyes followed his arm to the ring/box (second shock) and then I couldn't stand anymore. All breath, thought, speech, and sound stopped. I've never been that close to feeling what it is like to faint or be faint. I would liken it to that moment. Everything felt slow motion and it seemed like for just a moment or two it was just us. That's when I reached for him/the box. I needed to touch something in order to prove it was real and really happening to me. And then I immediately needed Dane to comfort me cause I got scared (the hug). Not scared at the idea, he really scared me. Like finding a spider in your car or shower. Spiders are not supposed to be there. Dane wasn't expected to be there.

After that and the champagne the night was a blur. Because I'm so classy and more so because I got the next day off of work, I got hammered. Jebis came out in the best from he/she has ever been in. For those of you who don't know (you probably do you just didn't know it had gained such force), my alter ego's name is Jebis. Jebis comes out when Crystal has had too much to drink. At that point, Crystal checks out and Jebis steps in. Back to the story, Dane practically carried Jebis to the car and inside the house where J promptly passed out in the cold reading room. Well, not before leaving a present for sober Crystal. Jebis managed to crawl on all fours upstairs to Dane, but he wouldn't let J to bed unless J "rinsed off in the shower". So my/Jebis' lovely fiance proceeded to clean us off and get us tucked in to bed. He's such a good man. At least one of us deserves him.

Okay, no more Jebis talk - I'm beginning to sound like Smeigel (Lord of the Rings). My precious!!

So a huge weight has been lifted and feel so renewed in my relationship with Dane. I feel like we are a brand new couple. Life is fun and new again. We've already started planning the wedding. The details so far:

Date: July 3rd, 2007
Location: Hotel Dreams, Cabos San Lucas, Mexico http://www.dreamsresorts.com/
Venue: Small sunset ceremony on the beach followed by cocktails, dinner, and reception.

We have some very exciting ideas about activities, the ceremony itself, the co-ed bachelor/bachelorette party, the honeymoon (which would be in Cabos as well), and other things. I have a wonderful wedding consultant named Georgina - so far she's totally earned her keep. She's a hustler and hard worker! AND THE MOST EXCITING NEWS!! Pastor Lilley is going to officiate our wedding! I've known Pastor since I was 8, lived with him and his family when I was 13, and most importantly - he officiated Isis' funeral. He and his wife, Carmen, flew up to CO from TX on 1 day notice at a time when Carmen was struggling with her own life and battle with breast cancer. It meant the world to me to have him there and honor my daughter and we promised each other the next time we saw each other would be under good circumstances. Unfortunately, Carmen died not long after that. While I couldn't make it to Carmen's wedding, she has remained in my thoughts and prayers. I am very excited and honored that Pastor Lilley is coming to Mexico.

Corona tours for all! (I had to end on a happy note)